....HOW IS THAT THE FUCKING END OF TORCHWOOD. I. WHAT. WHAT. SERIOUSLY OMG WHAT. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am literally flailing around my study. THERE IS LITERAL FLAILING HERE. THIS CANNOT BE HOW THIS ENDS.




In totally unrelated news, I SERIOUSLY THOUGHT MY CAT WAS DEAD TONIGHT. when I arrived home tonight, I talked to my mom in the tv room for a while, and patted Rupert (my giant ginger cat) who lay sprawled on a towel on the floor for a while before he attempted to bite off my face. Then I went to go get some water, and as I was exiting the room like, 2 mins later, I looked down at Rupert and noticed he was sprawled on his back, his head tipped back and his eyes open and unmoving. Now, normally he is very jumpy - if you make a sudden movement near him or there is a slight noise he will at least jerk. I stood near him to see if his fur was moving. IT WAS NOT. I stamped my feet near him. HE DIDNT BUDGE. I started making noises at my mom, and then she came and stamped her feet. THEN WE MADE SHRIEKING NOISES TOGETHER and I ran up the hallway BECAUSE OMG I DONT WANT TO KNOW IF HE IS DEAD OK. And my mom didn't want to touch him either to check. So she continued stamping. And then she turned off our electric heater, which makes a sudden loud noise AND HE MOVED. Seriously. I was halfway to my dad in SHRIEK MODE because he looked dead. HE LOOKED SO DEAD.

I am so freaked out.



BUT TORCHWOOD. HOW IS THAT THE END? HOW?

OH MY GOD TORCHWOOD. WHAT.

Seriously. I haven't watched Torchwood since the first three episodes of season 2. Randomly tonight I turned on foxtel to UK:TV and they were showing Day Four of the five day miniseries. I WHAT WHY SO AWESOME OMG ENGLAND HURRY UP. It is now 12:47am here. It's about time for the final episode to show in England. OMG HURRY UP I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.

I AM NOW GOING TO RANT ABOUT RL. 

I am forever stupefied at my older sister. I am hesitant to call her a bitch, because a lot of the time she isn't, in fact, she is quite kind when she wants to be. I also can't call her stupid, because she isn't. So what has me stupefied, is that very often she gets into what my family calls "Luanne's Special World" where no one exists but her, and she is literally unable to view the world from anyone's point of view but her own. And you can imagine that this causes stress for all involved - why wouldn't we give her the spare bedroom to use solely as a room for her to put her cupboards and boxes in so that her own bedroom was not cluttered? And why shouldn't her sisters go online and sit on ebay for her while she is at work and they are at home obviously doing nothing because what can they possibly have to do. Or book her flight tickets interstate. Or do research for her. Or use up all their computer ink printing her things because she "doesnt need a printer at home". It's her family, obviously we should be absolutely willing to do whatever she requires, when she demands it and not argue about it. I'm actually quite convinced that's how she views "family".

The latest installment in this saga occurred a few days ago.
( Read if you have some spare time, then give me your opinions. Did I act rashly? Am I being stupid? )

You know, had she even thought about me in all of this, and said "I realise you will be a bit put out money wise, because you don' thave a real job (heh), so I don't mind giving you petrol money (which I wouldn't accept anyway)" or "I realise two weeks is a long time, so if you are able to housesit for me for one week, and I will put my cat in a cattery for the other week, or find one of my many friends to housesit" then I would have been appeased and forgotten about how mad I was that she didn't think to give me details or double check with me.

The sad thing is, I feel guilty about it. I mean, I am ridiculously ANGRY because she has turned it around that I am rude and horrible and adding stress to her life and such a bitch because I don't wnat to housesit for 2 weeks and then she sends me SMS's like
    Don't give me attitude Lauren. Your life must be pretty sad if housesitting for me is going to 'fuck up' your life. I wouldn't want to 'fuck up'    your poor life so just forget about it. I don't need this shit from you and I'll remember never to rely on you again.

This SMS came after I sent her a message telling her that I would do it, only because I (apparently) said I would, but she should have at least have had the courtesy to double check with me before now, because two weeks was a huge inconvenience on me. While I may admit my message to her was abrupt, she didn't even have the decency to phone me about it, rather send an SMS. So she got a rude response. I feel a little guilty over that. BUT. I am just so overwhelmingly angry.


HA - the saddest thing is she will 'remember never to rely on me again' only until the next time she needs a favour, and next time I refuse because she is being a giant asshole to me, once again we will go through this saga.

GUYS MY ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE SUPERNATURAL CONVENTION DVD ARRIVED TODAY. I NOW GET TO RELIVE MISHA BEING AWESOME IN AUSTRALIA. AND EXTRA INTERVIEWS. I AM EXCITED.

Edit: I have a question. To people other than fans use the term 'canon'? Like, as in a show's canon? Because if not, then I will be 100% convinced Misha Collins is very well versed in fandom. Heck, during the convention he even used the word fandom.

I currently only have one thing to say to everyone:

GUESS WHAT I WILL BE GAWKING AT THIS SUNDAY? (and pictures stolen shamelessly from ONTD)

I AM SO EXCITED I CANNOT EVEN TELL YOU. The above was him att he...Sydney version of what I am going to this weekend. I AM THRILLED. IT IS LIKE THE NEW ZEALAND VERSION OF MISHA COLLINS.

I may, or may not have caved and purchased The Sims 3. Yay

I had the smart idea today to deal with my massive stacks of papers accumulated in the four years I have been at uni - handouts, journal articles, assignments, printouts, lecture notes..........I have just given up. It is way too hard. If I weren't such a hoarder, I would totally throw everything out. Sadly, I am also out of room to put things - I have 2 big bookcases, a bedside bookcase, chest of drawers and lots and lots of cupboard space....and I have used it all. It is very sad. I will go to IKEA and buy more bookshelves on Thursday, I think :-)

I also had to buy another external harddrive today - I have run out of computer room, and my 250gig external drive is viciously full. I even had to delete some stuff (NOOOOO). But in the end I just gave up and bought another one. This one is 1 TB and I should be ok, lol. Additionally, I will try and figure out how to make it automatically backup my computer files because I just know I am due for a giant computer crash and I don't save anything externally.


...maybe I will buy some shelves to put on the walls as well...hmmm *contemplation*....

I just recieved a copy of my current debt situation. I am gobsmacked. Seriously. Student debt = HELL. I am currently AU $22,777 in debt. This is so horrifying I have no words. Because in Australia we have HECS, which means we don't have to pay anything until we start earning a certain amount and then it is automatically deducted, it doesn't seem so bad. Until I get a statement like this. :-S. /weep.

MICHAEL JACKSON OMG.